It has almost been a year since my last post. So many things have happened and magically time seem to have flown so quickly, it seems just so... surreal. Like things never happened. But they did happened.

Looking at how I spent my day, I seem to come to a conclusion. If I am not going to do something about it, it will never change. So many times, I blame myself for many things that I did/ didn't do, but how many times have I made a conscious effort to put what I think I know into practice.

Looking back at all the previous posts, it always have been me being dissatisfied with myself, with who I am. But I never did anything to change it. I see myself being complacent, procrastinating.

Perhaps God placed me where I am now for a reason. I wanted to live my own dream, but His plans and purposes are way higher. What He wants me to be is way bigger than who I am really. I guess this time, it is really dying to myself and saying that if He has placed me here for a purpose. I do not want to disappoint myself. I do not want to disappoint Him.

For I know it may be beyond myself, but my God is stronger. He already said that He will be with me. Such an almighty strong and loving God says that He will never leave me nor will He forsake me.

Shouldn't I give Him my all? Shouldn't I break my alabaster jar and say God "I am yours." No matter what You have called me to. This year I want to break free from the silly old habits that have been tying me down. I want to learn to trust God more and have faith that I am able to do His will. Without Him, I am nothing.

But with Him, I can do ALL things.